Yesterday I slept for about 16 hours, and during the 8 or so that I was awake I must’ve cried for about 3.
What the hell is wrong with me?
Anxiety and depression have returned with a nasty vengeance.
My anxiety is so bad I kept running out of class to nearly throw up.
I feel like I’m going to burst into tears every 5 minutes.
All I want to do is get in bed and hide under the duvet.
I’ve forgotten what it’s like to have control over my thoughts, my emotions, my life.
I feel like every single part of my life is spiralling downwards and I’m doing that fucked up thing where I push everyone away.
Thoughts come back and tell me that I’m worthless, useless, fat, ugly, unloved… and I’ll believe them. Just like I always do.
Someone remind me how to stop?
Where are my emotional breaks?